Hail Kale!

I ate...or drank...AN ENTIRE HEAD OF KALE THAT I PUT IN THE BLENDER. With apple and strawberries. It really wasn't bad....I never saw anything that green!

I am still in no way a "raw foodist" yet. I think it takes awhile. You cannot just adopt a new way of eating that quickly...so I am just playing around until it's real. And learning. There seems to be a lot to learn.

I think I am going to the health food shop tommorow to pick up a few things...

Raw Anxiety

Had my normal breakfast of sugar free red bull and a balance bar. Then a friend asked me to go out at lunch. We went to a Mexican Restaurant. I quickly became overwhelmed with the delicious, if toxic, choices on the menu. I chose a quesadilla, which is was the least offensive thing I could find. I didn't even want it. I enjoyed the atmosphere of the restaurant at lunch...with great art on the walls and the door open to the street...but I was thinking about raw eating, and how the hell I would pull that off in social situations, such as I was experiencing.

Afterward we walked to Ben and Jerry's. I had a scoop of "chocolate therapy". These are not foods I would normally eat. I didn't really want the ice cream, but I enjoyed the experience of the ice cream shop. I have no idea how people eat raw in life.......no idea. Felt kind of tired low energy crappy for the rest of the day and am going to bed early. I found my first raw food recipie...hopefully I will have that tommorow night....

An apple is an apple. An orange is an orange.

Recently, I have had some health problems. I have had high blood pressure for a number of years off and on, despite a vegetarian diet and an active lifestyle. I have never been overweight. My doctor suggested I try to relax...I started yoga, meditation, and walks at lunchtime. I exercise several times a week. My job is extremely active, and I rarely sit down. I get plenty of sleep. The last time I visited the doctor, my blood pressure was still high. He put me on blood pressure medication. I asked him if I could be salt-sensitive. He said "nobody is THAT salt sensitive" (well, I happen to know that I am-having the unique perspective of living in my body for forty years). This week, I also developed an acute Kidney infection. Having these health problems has made me start to think. I am forty. I have just been put on beta-blockers. Do I want to take medication for the rest of my life? Do I really want to go down that road? I think of my vegetarian diet...but then...most of the things that I buy from the "organic" or "natural" isles at the grocery store....are still PACKED with sodium. I eat buckets of sodium every day. And chemicals. I drink gallons of diet coke. I enjoy chocolate and other sweets. Recently, I have done a lot of research about high blood pressure. I have read a lot about raw food, but still have a lot to learn....tons to learn.

Bottom line: I took the blood pressure medication once. I told my doctor I would not take it again until my kidney healed. I do not know if I will go back on it in the near future. I bought a blood pressure cuff. I have been watching sodium in food labels. Well...good luck...the American diet is vibrating with sodium, vegetarian or not. It pisses me off. Realistically I feel like I can just keep eating sodium with a smile on my face and take the meds, or drop out of the American way of eating all together...give it the finger, if you will, and see if nature can help. Maybe my body can fix itself, if I stop pouring salt and chemicals into it. Well I think it is worth a try...so that is what I intend to do. I am sick to death of having to read food labels, and having no idea of what I am eating. You need a degree in biochemistry nowadays to understand anything on food labels. I have had it.

An apple is an apple. An orange is an orange. This comforts me. I have to find out more about raw eating, and I am very excited and optimistic.